Moving on...

I have been stuck for a few days. It has been all for naught, this inter-mental mudslinging, as if I had done CI on myself. Oh, sorry, you poor thing, you don't know what "CI" is? Well, let me tell you what it is...it is the act of gathering, analyzing and applying information about competitors in your business. It's a shady activity as far as I am concerned, well used in political campaigns, which is why I think it is for the birds. And yet...

I do it to myself. Sure, it's a lot easier to get "inside" information about myself from, hmmm, myself, but you'd be surprised at how adept I am at hiding the real me even from me! There is the old denial ploy, refusing to face facts. Or how about the "it's not my fault I am the way I am scheme?" Huh, huh? You have these tools, too? Oh come on, I know you do. But in the end, well, we know ourselves and none of the hiding, denying, finger pointing, can change the truth about ourselves, (oops, first person rule) I mean, MYSELF.

But then I get stuck. I know the truth, I can't deny it any longer, it glares at me waiting for my response, or NO response. So the question arrives, "how do I get out of this muck and mire that is, well, me? I can't really blame it on anyone else. Lord knows I have tried. Speaking of the Lord, I've lost count of how many times I have blamed him for my problems, or should I say, choices that I made. It doesn't work to rationalize it away, because that is just another form of denial. So what to do?

1. Figure out what you are afraid of and face it down. Fear is often undefined. Name it. Pray about it. Expose it to the light. As you do so, it will shrink before your very eyes.

2. Stop running - the past is done and over. Running is just fear in motion.

3. Ask yourself, where do I want to be in five years? Two years? Next year? Next month? Set new goals. It's all about focus...what you focus on grows! So focus on something positive, it'll grow too, but without the heart burn!

OK, I feel better. Thanks for our little talk. Look, my wheels are no longer spinning!